Holaaaaaaaaaa! I haven't been writing here in ages, and sorry for that. Everything just has been a big, stupid pile of things, haha creative huh. The truth actually is, that I haven't really wanted to check my blog, because I just feel super duper bad. I miss so much back to Belgium, that it makes me feel sick.
And no one should understand me wrong, I'm very grateful of my life here in Finland, that my family feels themselves fine here, that I have new amazing classmates, I have the opportunity to study in a school that I have been aiming for ages, but meeeeeh still something is missing. I just miss that feeling when you're not sure if you should laugh or cry, because the train is late for almost 3 hours. The feeling that a shopping trip suddenly turns into a night out in Brussels nightlife, and basically just the feel of Brussels. The feeling when you can enjoy the last cigarette of night with your best friend, and realize that you'll smoke the first one with the same lady, as the night turns slowly into morning.
As well as it sounds really stupid, I'm scared when I will forget all this. When I can't anymore remember which direction I should go from Gare Centrale, or how does it feel to try to communicate with a pakistani person in french, when neither of you can not speak french. The feeling when you're dancing with your sister on dancefloor, and you don't know what kind of sign is it, that you know all the songs by heart which are played. The feeling when you suddenly stop to realize that, that was the spot that I got my first kiss in Belgium. And no, photos will not leave me these memories, I feel that I need to store them somehow else, I just don't know how.
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