You left the sweetest taste in my mouth, you're a silver lining in the clouds, Oh and I, I wonder what it's all about

Some old photos, mainly from 2009
Oh how I miss those times when you were nine, and you didn't realize any bad things around you.

This week I've been just missing so so so much my old life. I feel that I'm changing all the time, and I really don't identify myself anymore. I feel sick about thinking these things, and somehow I just feel that I hate myself. Sounds really ridiculous, but I don't anymore feel comfortable around people that are hurting me all the time. What have I done wrong to take all this shit on me? I've just lost my thoughts and I feel like their floating far away just like clouds after rain.